“It was wild initially, ticking off another ambition, another dream, every day, it seemed. Realising things you’d nurtured for years. But I started to lose the ability to take it seriously. I started to feel detached from what we were doing. We’d become very much a pop group and I was beginning to feel uncomfortable with that. That big arena tour at the end of ‘94 was disturbing. The noise as we went on stage – kids screaming – was unbelievable. The sound of screaming is pretty frightening plus it ruins the soundcheck. It felt like a freak show. I’d be trying to make them hate us. I think Damon was loving it and getting his needs met. But you see little kids being crushed and it’s not nice. It was freaking me out. We were leaving shows and getting our hair pulled as we tried to board the bus and I’m thinking, ‘This shouldn’t be happening to us. This is someone else’s thing.’ It wasn’t me. It was before the coming of the boy band and I think they were making the best of what was available, the little bastards. Reasonable-looking lads making reasonably poppy music. Even then, I kind of thought, I don’t really wanna do this any more.” - 3862 Days, Graham Coxon
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